reality yep it bits

there is a moment in every persons life when reality sets in. Well it has happened to me. You do not realize it until it happens and when it does you are like WOW!

I have been sitting in my home all alone thinking yes for the ones who know me i do think, but i digress I am going through major life changes (divorce) and I suddenly realized something, and that is why? Why am i fighting for something I can not have. i finally think it is setting in it is over and there is no hope for us to get back to together.

Now just because i realize that does not make it easier to get over it but I now can start to move on. I always try to be the nice guy and yes it does feel like the nice guys finish last, but I think that is because we are to unsure of our selves to stand and say we have the right for something better.

I figured it out I have been alone before and I made it to where I am so I can make it though any thing. To those who may be going through a hard time in there life just remember u/we are stronger then we sometimes think.

As hard as it may be and trust me there are hard time as long as you remember one thing you are who you are and life is what it is so just keep moving and it will work it self out just keep trying. And do what I do every day when I go to bed just tell your self I made it through today and I will make it through that to. All you need is good friends who will listen and be there for you.

So at this point i want to say thanks to my great friends who have been there for me(Courtney, Elisabeth and Nick)

So til next time Internet America

good luck and God Bless

Q

THERE ONLY WORDS RIGHT?

It has been awhile since I have been here so welcome back. Have you every stop to think about the words that you say in every day life? Well not me but when Life goes wrong you start thinking about the meaning of the words that are said. Case in point and the reason for my post

this is my story for the words that hurt I am getting a divorce not one I want but one that I am getting none the less it is happing. when you fall in love it is all good right I love you you are so sweet but do you say them cause you like the feeling do you mean them or do you just say it cause it is what everyone say. then you get married and this my friends is where the WORDS can hurt. Now I am not saying that all marriages end in divorce and for those who have the real thing God bless and know that you are truly lucky.

However for the one who are not so lucky the WORDS that are spoken are the ones that hurt. Now I know you are saying no one goes in thinking that it will end, I will give you that but what I am saying in the vows there is something said for BETTER OR WORSE right good time and bad times right. these are the type of words that I am talking about they are meant to mean something.

Now for me it did when my wife and I started having trouble and the D word got used i thought about the vows and the words said. I meant it cause it was not always easy for me to put up with my mother in law, my wife’s ex/baby’s dad but I understood that marriage was not always going to be easy, cause life is not always easy. But i worked though it knowing or thinking that it was worth it cause I had a lovely lady and  a wonderful child and even though life was hard and thing did not work out the way I wanted I had LOVE.

WRONG! those words from where I stood meant nothing to my wife. Life was to hard and it was easier to run and hide then to fight through it. I realize I had some hand in this for I made some bad chooses, gambled a little more then I should and lost money we did not have. But at the same time I won money we need to pay bills. So i am not passing blame some of it stays with me and I accept that. But I was willing to change and fight for it because of my vows/words.

she felt different told me I have love for you but not in love with you. I do not understand it you are together for many years and one day oh I don’t love you but I have love for you. I have figured it out what that means it is a nice way of saying I don’t want you died but I don’t want you with me either.

so here I am trying to pick up the pieces of my life thinking of the words that were said and I go back to the VOWS they don’t mean anything unless you truly live by them. I love you does not mean anything unless you mean them. Cause I am here to tell you that when you find out that they are hollow and you start wondering how long has this been going on it hurts more. So just one mans advice think about the words you say and if you really mean them cause words hurt.

Now you  may think what the hell is this guy talking about he got the boot and now he is upset. Well yeah I am hurt and upset but that does not change the fact that the words you say have meanings and you should not say them unless you mean them. Because words can and do hurt.

until next time internet AMERICA

This is Q

Where did the time go????

It is amazing this thing called time right?  Because today i went to my baby sister’s grad party. Now there was not a lot of people there but that did not make it bad but I got thinking where does the time go? Here is a little back story just to give you some perspective. My sister was what we lovingly  call an OOPs baby, my mom and step dad tried for years to have a child but was unable to have one. Then after renewing their wedding vows guess what happened my baby sis.

Being that I was 22 at the time I was a little unsure of what it would be like having a little sister partly cause of the fact that she was a girl cause i only had brothers growing up. I remember to this day the first time I held her she was so cute and sweet,” boy did that change.”

I was a big part in her life for I helped in raising her, and we built a bond that I am proud to say I think it will last for ever. Now through the years i was often mistaken for her dad but in some ways i like to think i was. Trying to inpart wisdom and good judgement ” but then again I guess I could of used some of that too”. I was there for her first step and word her first boy friend who I am proud to say I scared off by accident of course. I thought of all  the things she did to piss me off  and all the thing she did to make me proud to say that is my sister.  And I can truly say with out a doubt that I am proud of her and will always be.

She is graduating in June and will start the rest of you life hopefully go to some kind of higher education, fall in love , get a good job so on and so fourth. I guess what I am saying is that even though there are time I wonder what the hell she is thinking I know that she is going to be OK and I can smile cause I had a part in that.

So sis if you read this I want you to know that I am so proud of you and I hope you make it in what ever you do cause you are an amazing person and no matter what anyone tells you know that you big Bubba   loves and believes in you!

SO TIL NEXT TIME INTERNET AMERICA

THIS IS

Q

it’s ok. REALLY! discriminate against us

Well you all know that it is wrong to discriminate against race, sex, disability, weight, sexual preference  and I am I am forgetting something but you get my point.

Now with that being said it has be come ok to discriminate against smokers and yes I am a smoker. However we getting to a point were we can not smoke outside really with car, trucks and buses also factory’s filling the air you are going to bitch about my smoke please give me a break.Now I understand places who serve food, that is fine. But bars bowling ally’s really more people smoke in those places non-smokers. I thought that we lived in a country where the majority rules. but no not true.

well who rules well that is easy it is the ones who have the most MONEY that is who passes the bill. yes I know the health problem is what every one says, now I am not disagreeing that smoking is bad for you. And as  smoker i have no one to blame but me for my health problems. Again with that being said the tobacco co. have made it harder to quite by increasing the nicotine.

So in closing I guess go a head discriminate if it makes you fell better but as you set there on your high horse remember as you are stuff your face with crap and drinking your booze you are adding to the health problem as well.

UNTIL NEXT TIME INTERNET AMERICA

Q

New Found Hope

I just started this blog today, and I was looking around other blogs to see what was out there and found some thing that caught my eye. It was a blog about Hope and what it means to people.

the blog I that I found was by a friend of mine who happens to be gay. It was about inspiration that people found by the respect and accepting of people and their life style. it talked about stores of folks who were gay and the joy they found by people who saw them as they are , people who are just in love and that is all no different just in love.

I read this and I have to say it made me smile to think that there are people who really live by the word of God not to judge but to accept people . This is a wonderful thing it talked about hope it is amazing what hope can do. With out hope what do we have a life yes but with out hope what can of life is it? it is a life of saddness and dispear if you have nothing to look forward to and no chance of a better life. But with hope you find a new found joy for life and the things that once brought you down now don’t seem so bad. Silly I know sound so simple right but it is not, I think that all people have had a time in there life were there was no hope but found it thought a simple thing such as a smile from a stranger, a kind word from a friend, and finally family showing love. Cause after all that is what we all want is love and acceptance.

So with that being said next time you see some one, friend or not smile say hi let them know that no matter what (they are important). Cause yes we are all important no matter what they look like or what there life style is.

As I said in my first post I don’t care if people agree cause  if you don’t you are not smart enough to get what I am saying but good news for you there is HOPE.

Until next Internet America  this is UN PC I AM

Q

Hello world!

Welcome to my BLOG. Lets see I am new to this I will be covering a lot of stuff some you may like some you may not. But the great thing about this forum is I don’t care if you like it cause I can put up what I want. Now with that being said I think if you have an open mind we will get along just fine, and if not well you are an idiot and I am surprised you can read. So keep checking things out and I will make you think and ponder what life is all about . \

Thank you

UN PC I AM

Q